All my life I have been told that I was nothing and would amount to that.
After a while you start to believe this, and I have.
I have no confidence, and think none is needed.
To get up in front of people is a waste of time... -not mine, but theirs.
To tell people my opinions or ideas is a waste of energy... -not mine but theirs.
So I do not speak, in fear of me... -but for fear of them, not liking.
I have nothing important to say, and never will... -so why am I here?
I have to have an importance somewhere...
But where?

Come to think about it, I'm gonna suffer real bad if I keep suffering in silence.

Always pessimistic as an individual but when it concerns the interest of other people, I'll always go all out to make it good.
In othe words, I'm a pessimistic individual who's optimistic only when dealing with the interest if others.

Forever putting up a strong front so as to conceal real emotions.
Perhaps its just basic instincts and human nature that we don't reveal our weakness and sadness.
Its tiring having to stay cheerful and happy at all times even though deep down, you're torn.
Just because to everyone else, I am one who is always happy with life, always cracking up funny jokes, always entertaining people and providing amusement.

more ocmmonly known as a clown.
Emotions hidden.

Behind the smile is everything you will never understand.

New year grettings to all.
2006 has been a really hard year, even more so when drama was added just right before it was about to end.

Something's wrong, something's wrong.
What the fuck is wrong?
Tell me fuck!
You're the god damn problem!
Solve yourself godammit!


It's weird.
Cause I kept quiet, somehow or rather, people taught me to.
Judging a person is not a mistake, but judging a person without knowing them is a terrible mistake.
A terrible mistake that you would never wanna make.
The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection but not a fountain.
It's to show them that we love them not when we feel like it,but when they do.